hi. welcome to my dreamworld.

i'm james. i go by "despairingdreamer" on most of the platforms i'm on. sometimes "cheerfulbitter" or "despairdreamer" if the site has a stricter username character limit.

i'm a loser with a lot of time on my hands, mostly because i'm in online school. i work a part-time job at a boba shop with unfortunate financials and i live with my girlfriend and her mom. lol, that's probably kinda tmi for a guy whose website you just stumbled upon. but this is a personal blog, so it may only get worse than that. also, i'm only typing properly and with blunt sentences because i think it makes the front page look edgier. i usually hate ending paragraphs with periods because it's kinda intimidating.

it should be obvious who i don't want poking around in here. fuck the police, people who don't stand with palestine, and refuse to protect black, trans, and queer lives. i also just don't like melanie martinez and south park fans, so get the hell away from me. other than that, even though i'm shy and sometimes go inactive, i like interacting with people, so feel free to message me or whatever.

i hope to host a personal blog that updates.. at least once a week. idk if that will be achievable, but it'd be nice. i want to also put my amateur webcomics on here, if they ever get made.

and finally, this site was made to just fuck around. i like the idea of being a goofy little website on the internet. oh also. i used to be on neocities, but i learned about the creator supporting generative AI and immediately searched for an alternative. so that's why the title says the dreamscape has "expanded." i really like to yap. and use run-on sentences. and exclamation points and ellipsis... if you couldn't tell already. i think i'll only type like this for the front page.

by the way, check out this awesome video: